please say yes to all

are you eating well? are you enjoying and not overworking yourself? are you happy? are you in good health? are your studies doing fine?

If the answers to all of the above is a yes, I'm happy for you. (:

I missed you Edward.

the other day

the other day, i wanted to tell you this.

You broke up with me, but i haven't broken up with you. ^^

hope everything's going fine for you my darling Eddie. I've been more than fine.

thought of you

I was reflecting why didnt we work out. Maybe I caused it all. I wasn't kind enough to you. & now I could only miss you from afar. I really really used to believe despite us being apart, we would work out. I still do. I want to make it work.

But today I had a nightmare. I dreamt that we met up again. But this time, it was worse. You asked me never ever to text you. To stop all forms of communications completely. My heart, I thought, was so broken it couldnt break anymore. but, it can. Then again, it reminded me of how much I love you.

My heart is all for yours to break. It heals, and then, I'd let you break it over and over again.

Just for you.

Here's a song for you oppa.

remnants of us

I flipped through our "folder". I saw receipts of our past dinner dates, things we bought in thailand, in new zealand, that awesome pokeno breakfast, those grocery shopping and everything we splurged on. The air ticket confirmations, the hobbiton land entry tickets, our hairs, our notes to each other when we met for the first few times, our polaroid pictures together, and as I screen through these things, frames of our past flashed through my head like a animated motion picture that brought me to the brink of tears.

I probably asked why am I still keeping all these? I know the answer.

Because these are all that's left of you, and what's left of us.

I've said it many times, and I'd say it again. One of the biggest failure of mine was not being able to keep your heart with me. I know I can take very good care of you. I worry everyday when you're not with me. I know you are independent. But I wished I still have that privilege.

you're so difficult to love. You reject all who love you. & yet, I haven't found it tiring.

I know you're worth it.