I will always remember the overseas trips I've missed, the dinners I've skipped, the many social invitations I declined and the time with family I regretfully postponed for days after another just for assignments and exams I am always poorly prepared for.
But scoring As and even over the 90 mark are phenomenons that I've not experienced since I was fourteen, and it makes me dwell in glorious moments of my yesteryears, that I topped in many aspects of my academic and social life. While I looked back in depair and regret, I always reminded myself its never too late to pove myself again.
My current grades, although far from my ideals, justified these sacrifices that I've made, for a better future and personal educational gains. Or so I think.
I have plans for my future, yet, nothing has been materialised. It made me recognise the fact that luck and opportunities are more realistic than anything I have projected, and none of those were inputs in my equations. I sincerely hope the future I have imagined would turn out the way it should be, otherwise, I would just be pointlessly, at best, an architect of dreams.
While I slog to complete my assignment right now, part of my being wanders aimlessly at the social events that I can join again, as soon as I finish this. *sigh*
good luck to me struggling to get past this x-bar theory.
