Discomfort

I'm so in love with you I feel a lot of discomfort.

I wonder if you'll ever get tired of my professions of love for you. It's gonna be never ending, & all I can hope for is that you'll never get sick of it. Deep down I wish, & would like to know that you love me as much as I do. But I know love can never be measured and quantified, & somehow, I'm not sure if it'll ever be the same.

I certainly have a very dreamy perception of love. Perhaps my concept is moulded by too many Korean dramas and Disney princess stories. Maybe it's too idealistic. I cannot afford to fail in love. Because it would crush all my childhood dreams. In many ways I've grown up, yet in many ways I still possess a certain undefinable naivety. I know the truth must hurt, but I can't face reality.

Therefore if you ever love me lesser, don't tell me. I'd know. But I don't want to hear it.

You're the kind of dream guy I've always wanted. I can't quite pinpoint what is it about you I'm so attracted to because it's everything. You have this winning smile, charm and personality. A smile so bright and sunny it's so warm it melts my heart. My heart would wander and think about you all the time, my mind would fixate on you and won't stop thinking, my body can't leave you & my eyes can't stop the flickering images of what I last remember. I still feel your touch on my skin. Your lingering presence. Your tight hugs. Your calming and gentle voice.

I don't know how not to love a person like you. Yet when I try to give my best, I always feel like it's never enough. I feel too inferior, too inadequate to the extent I feel so small and insignificant, I feel discomfort. Yet on top of it all, I want to brave all these feelings and just hug you and be everything to you.

Maybe this is the magic of love. I'm so in love with you.

& I'm thankful. You were too cute when you teased my friends. I appreciate the effort. You're like the best. <3

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