wander thoughts

I'm not sure if it's a good or bad thing, but I did something today. But its a secret until probably 12 days later.
I'm not sure what I should expect. 

I think I could be allergic to chocolates now. I'm getting better but when I eat, the cough worsens. It worsens like the kind where I'd cough non-stop, and my windpipes contract so much I almost couldnt breathe. or maybe I'm just thinking too much. HAHA. But if I was allergic, then so be it, maybe its a way to make me forget about eating chocolates so my weight would go down more. heh.

in 11 days, it's gonna be three months, and as fast as it seems, it's also slow as hell. especially so when i get some alone time to think about you. You told me, until June, you'd be ready to get me back. I don't really know what it means, because why not now? This is certainly the most confusing thing in the world. But if I just take your words at face value, if in June, I see you again, if, you welcome me genuinely, I probably wouldn't question this "window" period at all, because all I want is just you, and I dont want to spoil it for anything else. This is most ideal a situation. If only we would just live happily ever after.

I'm pretty sure you're my prince charming. All princes are named Edward in some way or another, just like how common "William" is for a prince (:

& you just had to pick my favourite name in the world.

Sigh.

For dinner, I just had a lot of portobello mushrooms. It's too much. I probably wont have mushrooms anymore for the next few months. haha. I ate one that is so huge, its the size of my hands. Scarily big. I put 13 chilli padi into my signature minced garlic and chilli butter portobello mushrooms (that was a mouthful).

All of a sudden, I feel amused, that korea also has chilli. HAHAHA. now that I think about it, i wonder how you survive with all the ketchups in New Zealand. I heard in Europe, chilli is very very rare. I went to New York, and they don't even have chilli sauce in Macdonalds, nor the supermarkets. & their chilli isn't the fruit, when they say chilli it refers to the spicy tomato sauce with minced meat most commonly found in mexican food. I haven't been to New Zealand so I don't know.

How good if I were to go there to experience it myself. But I want to go to New York again too. :/ & we haven't gona to Korea together yet. I promise I won't be such a annoying princess as I was when we went to Phuket. HAHA. I do have a really bad temper I admit. I'd be nicer to you. I'll give you limitless angry-free Peiru pass.

Recently jia min kept craving for sam chon's cooking. She wanted to go there but I was too ashamed to visit him. I mean I can still go there, but I don't know what to say. What if he asks about you, what should I reply? That I didn't treat you well enough and you ran away? Or that I wasn't good enough for you?What if he asks how are you doing, I don't even know how to answer that. Should I even tell him we're no longer together? All these little unforeseeable possibilities, just deters me from going there again. It's best I don't get to see him then. Sigh.

I havent experienced enough things with you. We were supposed to get drunk together. On your last day here, I bought you a bottle of heineken for your lunch. We forgot about it and its still sitting inside my fridge. I would get you some high grade Choya, I know you loved it so much. There's still so much food in Singapore I haven't introduced you yet. You kept eating the taiwanese oyster noodles. HAHA. you're so cute.

just come back to me already.