i remember how its like again

perhaps I've been too busy to even care for myself, I forgot how it feels like to love you.

I've been immersing myself in work, I don't have time for anything at all. When I go to sleep, I just know I think about you. When I wake up, I'd whisper a soft "Godd morning 오빠" as I look out of my window wondering what you're doing. But I feel almost nothing, I'm like a zombie without feelings. Then, I quickly go prepare myself for work.

During these few weeks, I've been thinking why do I not feel anything anymore. Today I finally could slow down my footsteps and think about us again. I think about us everyday, you're my dream man. I cannot bear to call you by your name, because it takes all the intimacy all away. In my heart, when I address you, I'll still remember you as my "honey" or my "darling". And when i think about you again, deeper, and I ransack our past, those tears start to flow again. So I found out, all these while, it's not that I don't love you anymore, It's just that... I just managed to bury my feelings for a little while. When I dig them out, it still hurts as much, and the harder it hits me, the more pain I feel, the more real this love is.

I can't explain how deep I felt for you. You probably won't understand, because you never loved me more than I did for you.Otherwise, you wouldn't leave.