Thursday, March 21, 2013

resigned to fate

withdrawal symptoms. 

It's easier to lash out at those people I care most about because my forgiveness is guaranteed, but simultaneously, they're also the hardest targets of my exasperation because what I inflict upon them will multiply and the hurt becomes twofold.

I know what's bothering me but its impossible to get it out of my system. It's like a ball of energy - negative one in this sense - that can only be transferred or be changed into another form, but it'll just not disappear. It makes sense to channel these ill feelings to a less disturbing one, yet its easier said than done. I wonder how my memory seems to peak during the most untimely occassions and fails to work during exams. This is killing me. I can't forget things I'm supposed to forget.

Guess I'll just have to deal with it. What can I do?

What can I do?

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