Magic day

"magic day" is what you call it. Unfortunately it is not all magic. It is in fact a lot of pain, fatigue, headaches, giddiness, nausea, super focalised cramps. I wonder if the previous medications I took made this worse. This was the worst period I ever experienced in recent years.

Perhaps I'm just getting old.

I grimaced hard. I could get a lot more wrinkles on my face but it sort of helps to distribute the pain for a little while. I pressed my hands against my abdomen hoping the muscles looses its tension and that contorting grip I feel inside of me.

It was just hell.

It didnt help that it has been raining and I still sleep shivering in cold every night. Leg cramps visits me every other hour. I will try wearing socks to sleep tonight. I hope it'll help.

I am ransacking my brain. every single night, on how to survive till the next time I see you. & then I tried to recall your cute face. *deep in thought*.

Cute korean small eyes. Checked.
Small nose with the  little naughty boy crooked nose bump. Checked.
Brightest smile in the world. Checked.
almost-African sexy lips. Checked.
Native english accent with occassional Korean accent. Checked.
*copies korean accent, recall funny english pronunciation*. Checked.
Heart-melting korean language in your voice. Checked.
* imagining the most comfy and manly hands holding mine*. Checked.
*imagining the most comforting and warm hugs that never failed to keep me warm*. Checked.


My brain is practically running on the world's most powerful graphic card. nVIDIA and AMD can start selling its business when I launch mine into the market. HAHA.

It didnt help to dissipate the pain. But I felt comfort that you're still fresh inside my head, enough that I could still remember you.  All these imagination felt so real, only that, it is not. ):

So it got me thinking, not just this once, but it bugged me for as long as we've known each other. I really hope you're the one. If it were the case, I'd wait. Take as long as we need, I'd wait. (:

& from there, we can redefine My magic day, into Our magic day. (: