you're someone I wish I can turn to every single time, whether I'm happy or sad, whether you're the cause of it or not, you've become the first person I'll think of, every now and then. My emotions change faster than the absurdest weather and you've come to call me "difficult to handle". In times like this, I wonder if I could still go to you, snuggle into your arms and cry my lungs out. These are the times when I feel so orphaned in love and you are the only cure. But to say maintaining our relationship is "hard", I absolutely have no idea what to make out of it. Is this your way of telling me "I want to so make it work but I don't know how to" Or, is this your permanent excuse to not try at all so that you expect me to take it or leave it? Either way, it signifies your lack of effort & I'm not at all pleased.
you always say I've changed you, therefore I'm different from the others. In that I indeed feel special. Still, the fact that circumstances elevated my standing in your eyes will not mean anything without action. If you attribute everything to the fact that I am different and I've changed you, yet, when I really need your extra attention and concern, you can't even bother to try to express it when I needed it, what difference does it make between me & all the others out there? Its just all gonna be the same.
One word from you can make a difference to my world. That's the kind of impact you make. At the end of the day, I still wish you have the magnanimity to take me into your arms even if I irritated you a whole lot. that's exactly the thing I would do for you even if you agitated me. I still wish you would whisper sweet nothings into my ears and calm me down to say everything's gonna be okay between us. But you know we're so far apart so falling into each other's arms is so impossible, so at the very least, we can make it up for it in words.
I just can't believe it took you so long before I get to hear it. Then again, it's the effort that counts and if that's all I can get from you, I'll take it. It's not all that hard, & I just hope if there's ever a next time, I wouldn't have to wait so long for it, because when you're not my sanctuary, I feel like I'm in hell.
I could run out of patience, I could run out of love. I just don't want to run out of you for you mean everything to me. Don't say that I'm hard to handle, because you're just grouping me with all the others. If i'm really that special to you, maybe I'm worth more than your careless, lazy words.
Your effort to type that really long confession is really sweet & it reminds me of how long since I last heard these words from you. I really miss it. You havent' been this sweet in a while if you noticed. Of late, it's just so hard to get hold of you because you're busy with catching up with friends, with exams, with moving and out with friends. I miss you so much oppa. Every day and night, I missed you so much. I want to tell it to you almost every single minute but what a shame that your limited data usage forbids me to do so. These emotions are overflowing sometimes I think perhaps I said it too much, perhaps you got tired of it. If it ever did I'd not say it too often then.
Were it ever possible to make me feel less for you, I wish there was a way to do it, for I'm drowning in excess and you probably noticed none of it. This extravagance is uncalled for, I only wished it would be better appreciated than for it to go to waste.
you seem more distant than ever & I'm falling apart. I'm really falling apart.
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