torn

There's so many things I want to do for you, and with you. A few days ago, weeling sent me this website with attractive air fares to Auckland. I so want to book a flight to see you right away. But I can't. I need to finish my Uni first and that has to be priority. So that I can fight for so many other things in life and move on. A proper job so that I have the adquate finances for us to be together better. So that I can start my business prim and proper. So that I have the time to go to the language school. So that I could quickly communicate with you and your uncle faster. I was so jealous that Jia min could speak to your uncle so fluently, while I sit at the side, helplessly, and not knowing what they were talking about. I needed to tell him how thankful I was, sorry that I imposed, and I really hope he would take good care of himself. I couldn't because I didn't know the language. All these things adds up and it went to my pile of regrets. The so many things that I was not able to achieve and accomplish, only made me feel burdened. I have to get things done quicker. I need to.

I received a lot of goodies and snacks. I need to share with you. I definitely will feel happier if I did. I miss your smile. I miss your laughter. I love your voice. I miss your hugs. 7 september is too long a wait, and it seemed harder as it approaches.

Oh honey, please let time pass quicker. That is if i'm still your girlfriend. Looks like Daniel beat me to the position. ): Playstation triumps me and I don't like the sound of that. Come to me with a sad voice tomorrow and perhaps I'll take you back. HAHA. (:

love you!