it's getting tedious

It's not that i don't like my subject. But I really can't seem to focus somehow. I love what I am studying right now. Being immersed in English and Literature books the whole day is only enjoyable when it's not a formal & tested thing. There's no joy in reading too much into things like how Literature makes me do and analyse things like a lunatic thinking too much and blabbering excessively. But too bad, I still have to go through the exams & try to ace this stupid paper.

I'm standing on a cliff. I can feel earth cracking under my heel.