I love planes as much as Sheldon loves trains. I love to fly on one. I love the heart sinking feeling when it's swooping down the atmosphere, & I share the same fondness for the taking-off mini adrenaline rush. I remembered how i used to tread on the aisle carefully up and down to retrieve some balance. I also recall the times when I chose to walk up and down and up and down as if i was walking on a travelator, just because i like it; it's as though i'm walking on clouds! The carpeted floor, the smell of new aircraft, the window seat, the pretty air stewardess, the free poker cards and toys & colouring sets, the packed food, the free-flow of orange juice, the incredulous view of geography beneath you, a closer distance to the Sun, everything. It's all in the package. I love every single bit of planes and plane rides.
Being an air stewardess was my ideal job, until i learnt i am probably too short and fat for them. Therefore i changed to being a teacher instead. I managed not to think about it until some time ago, when reading acnedotes on how awesome their lives are. I've heard stories about how falsely glorified this occupation is. Still, there's a part of me deep down which motivates me to feel like a stubborn child. It's a childhood fantasy nobody wants to let go.
Being fat, I can slim down. But being short? i don't think there's any way to get around this. ):
& worse part of all, i can't take my spects down. As tragic as all these flaws of mine sounds, it is ironically the factors which provides the stimulation fodder to want it more.
I can't get over the fact that I have to be desk-bound. True that being teachers I get to walk around, but going by this argument, I can easily dispute this by saying stewardesses are too, cabin-bound; but the stark difference is that they are deported to cabins all over the world & teachers are at best, deported all around Singapore.
): Guess the only thing to do now is to moan & wail & lament over the deficiencies of my physical attribues & await a miracle to strike; in the hopes that good karma is real & expendable in my lifetime.
Meanwhile, it remains a dream out of reach.
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Friday, April 15, 2011
fei fei wanton mee
This is good. I like the soup & the wanton & their extraordinary chili. But without a car, it's pretty out of the way. but i enjoy the walks with boyfriend. & too, his house's proximity to Fei fei! :DWe could all use a good dinner to put a better ending to our day :D
& HAHA. i was sleeping when boyfriend came back, so i had these 2 to welcome him instead.. HHAAHAH. This is how you maximise use of your soft toys! create phantom presence, treat them as if they were real & make them work for you!
bonkers on homework.
Some part of me really wished UniSIM is exam-based instead of having to do their homework. then again, if it were, i may not be able to do so well given that homework can really help me up my grades by so much!
But the constant torture every other week about trying to do your best to perform & hope it's gonna be the essay of the century is driving me crazy. I cannot settle for substandard work. I really cannot. Call it my stupid habit or whatever you want, I really cannot stop my inclination towards making everything perfect.
I wish things can be made simpler. but too bad for me there's such a thing called "first class honours" & I want it.
though i may or may not pursue my honours, i may just stop at a bachelor, being in UniSIM & getting average grades doesn't speak much of my potential. If i'm already not in a top-notch school, i jolly well prove to the world that i'm more than what i seem to be.
& we're talking about literature here. that's the challenge. People read books. I study books. Everyday i'm honing my analytical skills, but it doesn't seem to bring me anywhere. I become too analytical, i analyse everything.
& trust me. That's not healthy at all. I can rebuke almost anybody & point out their fallacies & turn their own words against anyone if they're just not being careful. but what's the point of all of these? NOTHING. It just goes to show how bored i am.
Yes. I'm freaking bored.
So all i have to do right now is to apply for a teaching position right after i come back from US. Oh boy, i need a life.
meanwhile, i'm still struggling on my essay. Not that i dont have anything to write on, but i have trouble focusing. My parents should test me for ADHD. i may be suffering from an attention disorder.
i'm super pathetic to be suffering from inferiority complex & from a 100 word essay. It should be easy. It must be!
FOCUS CHERRYDATE. FOCUS IS KEY. i can feel the stress building up. It's the time of the year when exams are approaching. Get used to my grumbles. It'd be more frequent from now.
But the constant torture every other week about trying to do your best to perform & hope it's gonna be the essay of the century is driving me crazy. I cannot settle for substandard work. I really cannot. Call it my stupid habit or whatever you want, I really cannot stop my inclination towards making everything perfect.
I wish things can be made simpler. but too bad for me there's such a thing called "first class honours" & I want it.
though i may or may not pursue my honours, i may just stop at a bachelor, being in UniSIM & getting average grades doesn't speak much of my potential. If i'm already not in a top-notch school, i jolly well prove to the world that i'm more than what i seem to be.
& we're talking about literature here. that's the challenge. People read books. I study books. Everyday i'm honing my analytical skills, but it doesn't seem to bring me anywhere. I become too analytical, i analyse everything.
& trust me. That's not healthy at all. I can rebuke almost anybody & point out their fallacies & turn their own words against anyone if they're just not being careful. but what's the point of all of these? NOTHING. It just goes to show how bored i am.
Yes. I'm freaking bored.
So all i have to do right now is to apply for a teaching position right after i come back from US. Oh boy, i need a life.
meanwhile, i'm still struggling on my essay. Not that i dont have anything to write on, but i have trouble focusing. My parents should test me for ADHD. i may be suffering from an attention disorder.
i'm super pathetic to be suffering from inferiority complex & from a 100 word essay. It should be easy. It must be!
FOCUS CHERRYDATE. FOCUS IS KEY. i can feel the stress building up. It's the time of the year when exams are approaching. Get used to my grumbles. It'd be more frequent from now.
Thursday, April 14, 2011
the heaven too far
Haven't really let myself be down like this for a long time.
My life is stringed by a sequence of poorly made choices. Yet, I never found the strength to spring back onto the right track. Normalcy seems so out of reach.
I look at other's lives and I'm ashamed of mine. They were all doing so so good. I definitely do not consider enrolling into unisim and doing my favourite course a honorable phase in my life. I could have done so much more but I wasnt determined enough. Sigh.
I was offered to go overseas to study last year. I was so happy! But my dad's offer came too late. I put in so much effort in my homework and scored so well that i didn't want to just give it all up.
But come to think of it now, I probably should have taken up his offer. I feel as if i've been robbed of an overseas experience I've always wanted. Then again, If I were to go to the US/Aussie, I have so much to give up. & I just couldn't let go.
I really, don't know what to do. I don't know what to make out of my life again. I hope the right opportunity would just come in my favour. & that point of time, I'd seize it. I'll never let it go. Not again.
My life is stringed by a sequence of poorly made choices. Yet, I never found the strength to spring back onto the right track. Normalcy seems so out of reach.
I look at other's lives and I'm ashamed of mine. They were all doing so so good. I definitely do not consider enrolling into unisim and doing my favourite course a honorable phase in my life. I could have done so much more but I wasnt determined enough. Sigh.
I was offered to go overseas to study last year. I was so happy! But my dad's offer came too late. I put in so much effort in my homework and scored so well that i didn't want to just give it all up.
But come to think of it now, I probably should have taken up his offer. I feel as if i've been robbed of an overseas experience I've always wanted. Then again, If I were to go to the US/Aussie, I have so much to give up. & I just couldn't let go.
I really, don't know what to do. I don't know what to make out of my life again. I hope the right opportunity would just come in my favour. & that point of time, I'd seize it. I'll never let it go. Not again.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
wanton mee
In case you don't know, the word "Wanton" is an actual English word.
"sexually lawless or unrestrained; loose; lascivious; lewd: wanton behavior. " from dictionary.com 4th denotation.
& seems like my wanton mee, is living up to its name. & It's so delicious everybody wants it.
& the really salty soup. is a big bonus!
"sexually lawless or unrestrained; loose; lascivious; lewd: wanton behavior. " from dictionary.com 4th denotation.
& seems like my wanton mee, is living up to its name. & It's so delicious everybody wants it.
& the really salty soup. is a big bonus!
Sunday, April 10, 2011
ASOS dresses
omg. I would totally buy all these dresses if i wasn't saving up as much as i can for US trip. These are sifted after browsing through 1790 choices offered in their web page. But they aren't cheap though.
I'm lazy to state the prices but even the cheapest are priced at 25 pounds, & max at 229 pounds for this page of selection. There's more extravagrant ones on their page but i didn't fancy.
So if u see any of these & u wanna buy & don't wanna click through 90 pages of 4by4 rows&columns, just run your mouse over the picture to get the name of the piece & search again in ASOS's site. 
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Heel Gallery
was browsing through ASOS today, & came across these super lovely heels! but i'm one of those who love heels but rarely wear them because they can really spoil the day. some shoes bite, but looking at them wouldnt do much harm right! One of my many love-hate relationships.
ASOS PERFECT Platform Court Shoes £45
What I love: pure black heels is one of the must-have in my wardrobe. though i already have one, i wouldn't mind another. As simple as this shoe seem, i don't know. It's just... appealing! & it's screaming "buy me! I'm sure to make your money's worth. i can go with everything!"
yes. it sure can. from casual outfits to prom to gala dinners. just make sure it doesn't have mud stains & of course, not to the beach/coffeeshops at your neighbourhood!!!
overdressing is a major fashion FLOP!
unless you're so freaking rich you bought Lanvin/Chanel/Miu Miu etc etc... & have no occassion to wear to & just wanna clad it on to feel money slipping away through the wind, by all means. wear it everywhere you want!
ASOS PUMP IT UP Suede Platform Court Shoe £55
What I love: same as the above, except that this has the suede finishing & pleasant soft grey hue.
Karen Millen Clean Cut graphic colour block peep toe £150
What I love: It's Karen Millen! It'll be more productive to ask me what i hate about this: The extravagrant price! HAHA!
KG By Kurt Geiger Eleanor Platform Court £130
What I love: the snake-skin textured platform heel! just gotta love it!
KG Calista Bow Detail Pointed Platform Shoes £130
What I love: The peachy pink colour contrast being very interesting and chic! 
Miss KG Lemonade Peep Toe Platform Court £75
What I love: The grey-olive greenish textured textile serves to bring out a very dignified sense of maturity to the overall look!
Miss KG Memphis Bow Front Peep Toe Slingback Shoes £75
What I love: the non-striking gold which wouldnt steal away the attention from the wearer. & the bow which isn't a ribbon. There's a stark difference. ribbons are cute things, they're meant for girls. Bows are classy embellishments meant for women.
Pollini Suede Platform Heeled Shoes £285
What I love: The wavy platform. it's really rare for such bold designs!
ASOS PASSIONFLOWER Satin Platform Shoes £45
What I love: That i do not have to worry about my oversized ankles. The satin corsage at the sides would definitely do some visual help to minimise the legs by diverting attention to its ethereal beauty.
ASOS PENELOPE Corsage Court Shoe £45
What I love: the very oriental look accentuated by the dark navy blue against the pearl satin canvas. of course, the extraordinarily elegant folded satin as brooch for the shoes.
Reminds me of qipaos! 
Dune Velocity Platform Shoe With Corsage Trim £85
What I love: Yes. I love flower ornaments on the shoes. Especially huge & fluffy ones like this! 
Karen Millen Graphic Tribal Neon Print Court Shoes £125
What I love: you just gotta love the striking outbursts of warm hues. It's like blow-paint artpiece stretched over this pair of shoes. 
The huge bow is SOOOOoooooo LOVELY! Gorgeous!
The huge bow is SOOOOoooooo LOVELY! Gorgeous! 
ASOS PERFORMER Multi Buckle Platform Shoeboot £55
What I love: the exquisite engravings on the buckles! 
Elizabeth and James Manic Lizard Effect Platform Strappy Heeled Sandals £355
What I love: the lizard leather finishing. love the texture. 
Guess Anamaria B Strappy Evening Sandals £90
What I love: Guess shoes are one of my favourites. Dont talk about their apparels though. epic failure. LOL! but this pearl coloured strappy heels deserves our love.
ASOS HAZE Ruched Strap Wedges £45
What I love: The gray against the woody-like texture!
ASOS PAVE THE WAY Suede & Raffia Wedge Shoe £55
If you wanna browse more & have lots of cash to spare.... Here it is
ASOS PAVE THE WAY Suede & Raffia Wedge Shoe £55
What I love: The raffia wedge! totally!
ASOS PAVE THE WAY Suede & Raffia Wedge Shoe £55 What I love: the crimson red suede. Red is absolutely ostentatious in an absolutely good fashion. Pun intended.
If you wanna browse more & have lots of cash to spare.... Here it is
i'm off to their dresses now!
Burger on the street
is this like a prank? We saw a burger on the road while making our way to Parkway parade! HAHAHA!
THEN, we had MOS burger. oh yay! i love mos burger! :D
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
finger pointing
with regards to the recent racket over Singapore's "Soft soldier" who made his maid carry his army stuff, who is really at fault to make this major enough to be featured on international platforms? BBC News (this made to international news, link here)
I have this 'friend' on facebook, he facebooked the above, which i could never agree upon regardless of whatever reasons, that the poor soldier had to shoulder all the blame for our embarassment to make such headlines to international news.
Yes, it's a big deal. to make his maid carry his fieldpack. But then again, who was the one who allowed this to be even posted online? Singaporeans. specifically the one who sent this in to STOMP. & of course, the organisation, responsible for releasing pieces of news that our fellow Singaporeans leech upon to satisfy their insatiable hunger for gossip & controversy.
Don't be mistaken. I'm not saying that the NSF wasn't at fault. I'm just saying it's unfair to say that it is he who embarrassed Singapore, because everyone in the society had a part to play, & it IS REALLY, the 'kaypoh-ness' of the people, the overly-unhealthy curiousity; the poor foundations of morals the society built upon which led to this.
& anyway, seems that such unworthy gossip is not epic enough, not even a 2-day consecutive headline material that everything had died down already.
So, just hope that our fellow people would be more tolerant towards each other. Don't be too quick to judge, becuase there may really be a reason why people do wrong. & people who succumb to finger-pointing too easily should really be more retrospective. You're not perfect either.
& of course, those who did wrong should repent & hopefully do not repeat history again. :D
As for that facebook friend. He's only a 'friend' like i stated from the start. there's really not much value to this friendship in the first place. disappointments.
then again. i believe in change.
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